Only three months into the year, and 2012 is already looking to be a widly adventurous and creative year for me. I am driven by a great enthusiasm to create – inspired by a curiosity to move into unknown territories. In the material sense, it has translated into me taking up projects that test the boundaries of conventional thoughts/methods – allowing me to explore insights, knowledge, wisdom that may yield more exciting ways for people to experience the world. It also allows me on a personal level to challenge my own beliefs and expand my perception of life. All of this coincides with a deepening of my spiritual connection that has significantly raised my awareness in the last couple of months.
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Many of my clients with addiction problems have asked why they often drink or use drugs when things are going well for them. “I can understand if I’d been feeling bad,” they say, “but why is it that when things are good I’d start using again?” There are many reasons and I am going to offer my views focusing on the aspects which I find particularly interesting.
Sometimes, we use the excuse of wanting to celebrate to go on a binge and end up abusing ourselves. This is not what I am addressing; here, the celebratory mood is likely to be forced just because we want an excuse to embark on our self-abusing behaviour. What I am addressing is when your life genuinely starts to look good and you’re feeling good, and then you choose an unhealthy habit and you end up sabotaging yourself.
I have just come to an end of a relationship and it’s been a test of my own connectivity to come out of it healed. I’m reminded of how stresses can trigger old, destructive tendencies and in times of great stress it’s imperative that we watch ourselves vigilantly so that we don’t slide back to a well-trodden but useless path.
Time seems to slow down when we’re in deep emotional pain. Not in a pleasant way, but in a way that seems to just drag on and prolong our pain. I’m reminding myself that this is a good thing – there are simply too many easily-available ways for us to numb our pain, and the temptation to bury pain is the evil which all addictive persons must fight. Pain can only be healed if pain was present in our awareness.
I woke up today feeling light, fresh and abundant. I am no longer in a smog-filled city, but in a beautiful resort which is to be my base from now on. To think that I’d been mildly resisting moving away from the city to live in the ‘countryside’. For days I’d had a running commentary at the back of my head: How will a city girl cope with living in the countryside?
On arriving at the resort where I’ve been employed as part of a team helping people with addiction problems, I immediately felt calm and at home. This placeis beautiful – more than the aesthetics, the energy is flowing and welcoming. The resort sits on the banks of the famous River Kwai, a stunning site that showcases the beauty of the river. The first thing that grabs you is how alive this place is – the river flows strong and fast, yet is calm, so that it moves like a sheet of fabric on the surface. The constant movement of the water makes the whole place come spiritually alive.